Reflections – Page 4 – Iain Douglas Stewart

Self isolation, week three

By Iain 6 April 2020ReflectionsNo Comments

Last week went a bit quicker than the first week of isolation - but I put that down to not being on high alert in terms of anxiety the whole week. It's reared it's head again, but I'm slowly reeling it back in as things settle down. Looking back to the first week, I was neurotic. Overthinking. Fell to the…

Self isolation, week one

By Iain 25 March 2020ReflectionsNo Comments

You may have heard something about the coronavirus, I'm not sure if it's on the news yet... Oh, who am I kidding, it's everywhere. You can't have not heard about it by now, it's affecting absolutely everything. We're self isolating this week because Jake developed a cough the night before he was due to go back to school - we…

Three years ago, today

By Iain 10 February 2020Books, Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

Or yesterday, I forget. Whichever day it was, three years ago I was going to kill myself. I've come a long way, baby. Far enough? Not yet. We still have a ways to go. But still, considering the progress that I have made, it's unreal. Compare the person I was back then to the person I am now and I…

The “Lewis becoming an adult” thing

By Iain 6 February 2020Reflections, Site Related, The Mission, VideogamesNo Comments

This is going to be hard to write without sounding jaded, or bitter, but I'm going to try. My nephew, Lewis, turned 18 recently. He's Jane's sister's first-born, and I've known him all his life. I don't know where to start with how I feel about my perspective on all this, so forgive me if it seems disjointed. So, as…

From Ramblings, to Reflections

By Iain 30 October 2019Reflections, Site Related, The MissionNo Comments

I'm changing "Ramblings" to "Reflections". It's not often I make changes or additions to the structure of the blog, but this seems right. Language is fascinating, and this is an example of how the language you choose to use defines you. You see, "Ramblings" gives the impression of me waffling on about nothing in particular. This is not something I…

First driving lesson

By Iain 30 September 2019Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

I had my first official driving lesson today, it went well. I was nervous as hell, and on the one hand I was not at all sure I could do it... But on the other hand, I drove a car. Just up and down a road, nothing major. But I drove it. And I'm proud of myself. I even reversed…

So I took a year off, from everything

By Iain 9 September 2019Creativity, Reflections, Site Related, The Mission, VideogamesNo Comments

I mean, it was mostly not through choice. We needed to make sure we would make it through the year financially. Sure, an exotic cat was added to the family in 2019, but other than that, we were careful. Frugal. Thing is, I got lazy and complacent. I found the smallest possible reason to take a year off from personal…

About the old me

By Iain 4 September 2018Internet, Reflections, Site Related, VideogamesNo Comments

Hey. My old blog, Waves, is gone. Here are the old “About Me” pages. They are no longer relevant to me, my mission or my desires.

2013 in review

By Iain 3 September 2018Creativity, Reflections, Site Related, The Mission, VideogamesNo Comments

I'm just going back and porting my blog posts from 2013 over and man, this was a funny year. Existential panic had set in. I knew I wanted to do something with my life, but I was throwing darts into the mist trying to find what that something was. In the previous year, app development didn't stick, and drawing pictures…

That time I thought I was an app developer

By Iain 21 August 2018Internet, ReflectionsNo Comments

I'm getting into 2011 now, and this was the time when I got a Windows Phone and decided I could make apps - even though I had never shown any aptitude for real coding in my life. Sure, I could tweak things here and there on a website, or just about fudge my way through and make something look semi-presentable…