Or yesterday, I forget.
Whichever day it was, three years ago I was going to kill myself.
I’ve come a long way, baby. Far enough? Not yet. We still have a ways to go.
But still, considering the progress that I have made, it’s unreal. Compare the person I was back then to the person I am now and I would be unrecognisable. I’m halfway through my second year of counselling training. I’m so very close to getting my own car. I’m so much more confident in myself. I have a better understanding of who I am and what my goals are while I’m on this planet, and how I’m going to achieve those goals. My self-awareness has increased massively, and that has increased my self-esteem, and I’m on my way to self-actualisation. Even just starting my counselling course and starting driving lessons would have been impossible a few years ago. The last academic year may not have gone so well, but this one is looking good for me completing the CPCAB Level 3 counselling course, and it is onwards and upwards from there.
It’s funny – since starting the counselling studies, and learning more about the human condition, I’ve come to realise which bits of which disorder apply, and that I should have focused on treating my anxiety, rather than the depression. See, the depression, the low mood, that was a symptom of the incongruence I felt inside myself, which was caused by the extreme anxiety I was experiencing. I was just scared of everything. All the time. I still am, a little. But I’m getting a handle on it.
Reading “Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway” was an eye-opener. My main take-away from the book?
We all get scared.
The best way to overcome this is to start doing the thing you’re scared of.
Worried about unforeseen problems arising?
Remind yourself to say “I’ll deal with it” in relation to these problems.
It’s surprising how quickly the things you dread become easy.
I heartily recommend this great book if, like me, you have ever suffered from extreme anxiety.