Reflections – Page 3 – Iain Douglas Stewart

My procrastination

By Iain 24 November 2021Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

Procrastination is a tricky beast. To anyone watching it may look like I don't care about anything, and I'm being lazy. But in reality, I'm crippled by indecision. I don't know what to do next. There are so many things I want to do, things I want to start, things I want to finish, things I want to carry on…

Theory test passed again

By Iain 25 June 2021Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

So I had to retake my theory test simply because the pandemic had caused too much time to lapse. I casually remembered that I had booked it the night before the test, mild panic set in, and I quickly took three or four mock tests on the theory test app. I passed the first one, but then massively flunked the…

Rangers are champions!

By Iain 8 March 2021Films/TV, ReflectionsNo Comments

Well, I knew it would happen eventually. I last wrote about football here: https://iaindstewart.net/blog/2012/08/17/football/, and in that post I explained how Rangers got demoted from the top league in Scottish football to the lowest league because of financial irregularities, but that I was confident they would make it back to the top flight soon enough. Sure enough, they made it…

Four years on. History is not over, things change.

By Iain 9 February 2021Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

Bit of a rambling one, this. Four years ago I had a mental breakdown and I walked off into the night with the intention of killing myself. I didn't do it, obviously, I changed my mind. I turned away from the void. Vowed to change. To become someone I'd always wanted to be. That's the only thing we really have…

Saying you’ve levelled up on your birthday is cringe

By Iain 8 December 2020Reflections, The Mission, VideogamesNo Comments

It's my birthday today, and after receiving the card pictured, it struck me how cringe it is to say that you've "levelled up" on your birthday. Looking back on some of my previous birthday posts... I noticed that I've used the phrase once or twice myself. I get that it's a videogame analogy, but it just doesn't work when you…

If your grandfather was here today, would you be able to look him in the eye?

By Iain 21 October 2020Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

Men: Are you proud of your behavior? If your grandfather was here today, would you be able to look him in the eye? Are you a man of the world, caving to whatever temptation it puts under your nose? Or do you want to be uncommon, a great man? Do you want to be proud of yourself?— EthanE (@ethan_ethos) October…

Taking another year off

By Iain 16 September 2020Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

I'm finding myself in that situation again this academic year, mainly thanks to coronavirus this time around rather than financial worries. But this time, I can see it coming, and I won't lose focus. I won't waste this year. I've got things I need to do to be ready for starting the level 4 counselling course next September. See, after…

Reflecting on ending self-isolation

By Iain 24 June 2020Physicality, Reflections, The Mission, VideogamesNo Comments

This Coronavirus thing has been a bit shit, eh? I'm due to go back to work next week, and I have mixed emotions about it. On the one hand, I hate my current job, and these twelve weeks have been eye-opening to exactly how much I do hate it. I'm anxious to go back because of the health risks as…

Self-isolation, quarantine, whatever this limbo is; week seven

By Iain 6 May 2020Creativity, Physicality, Reflections, Site Related, The MissionNo Comments

Time is strange at the moment. It goes fast, but feels slow. Days take ages, but are over before you know it. This strange coronavirus limbo is warping things. It's so quiet outside, it's unreal. Eerie. Spooky. It feels like the entire world has been paused. I didn't get a rowing machine in the end, I'm ashamed to say the…

Self-isolation, week four

By Iain 14 April 2020Internet, Music, Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

It reminds me of when I was unemployed, having all this free time. But it's weird - instead of bumming around playing videogames all day and moderating meaningless internet forums, this time I am spending my time improving my situation. I asked Twitter when the lockdown first started if this crisis brought anyone's mortality into sharp focus. It did mine.…