So I had to retake my theory test simply because the pandemic had caused too much time to lapse. I casually remembered that I had booked it the night before the test, mild panic set in, and I quickly took three or four mock tests on the theory test app. I passed the first one, but then massively flunked the next few – but instead of staying up late doing more tests I went to bed so I’d be fresh for the real thing the next day.
On the bus to the test centre I took a couple more tests, just about scraped through, and then had a bottle of Lucozade to jazz my brain up just before the test. Things went extremely well, I got a good run of questions that I definitely knew the answers to, and the hazard perception test went well too. I must’ve zoned out at one point, because the results show I scored zero points on the clip that has two hazards. Or maybe I clicked too many times on it. Either way, I still passed though, so that’s good.
Still not got my car on the drive, as we’ve currently got Jane’s car, Jane’s Dad’s car, and our nephews car all on there. I can’t even park my own car on my own driveway. I don’t fancy doing work to it or giving it a good clean while it’s in the road to be quite honest. Just a bit dangerous. I feel like it’s holding me up though, as this is the next step I need to take to make progress. I mean, I honestly could do other things first, but this is just the way my brain works…
There is an order to the way I want to do things.
I’ll speak on this a lot more very soon, as I’ve been thinking about who I am and how I function in the world, and how the various aspects of my personality interact with each other and the whole. For a long time I’ve thought “I might have this” or “I might be that”, but very recently I’ve felt a need to nail them all down, and I think I’ve found a way to do that. As I said, I’ll be writing about this in great detail very soon, as I believe getting this straight in my head, explaining it and distilling it down to a few key aspects will propel me forwards. It’s just one less thing to have going around in my head, so instead of wondering “why do I do this?”, I’ll know “why” I do it, and I’ll be better equipped to deal with any problems it causes.
