I’m just making little summaries of the posts as I transfer them across to this blog from my old one, paying attention to key moments and looking out for the overarching themes.
I knew something had to give. The first few posts of 2014 concerned the targets I was setting for myself. This one was interesting:
For too long I didn’t know what I wanted to do. Now I do know. Let me do it.
I didn’t know exactly what my purpose was here, but I wanted to know, so bad. Again, I was throwing darts into the mist to see if they hit anything.
I started doing “Friday Updates” regularly this year – I think I was going through a phase of watching the Achievement Hunter Weekly Updates and under a veil of self-importance I felt I had to update everyone with what I was doing each week.
Then there was this one, where I basically spelled out that I felt I was still a child, despite living in an adult body. I will come back to this another time when I can do it justice.
Shopping List LOLs were a thing in 2014. I used to keep an eye open for discarded shopping lists at Asda, and then deconstruct them. I quite enjoyed this – I love taking the mick out of people.
There was a guy who started at Asda in 2014, then a few weeks later killed himself. This made me consider things. Made me realise I wanted to help people. Especially people close to the edge.
This is one of my favourite posts. I had a mini-crisis while watching the Lord of the Rings and I was somehow reminded of a thing I played while playing another game – I can’t honestly remember what the other things was now, so, erm, whatever. But it was a fun post to write, and a fun post for me to read again just now. My views have changed somewhat now, and I’d love to go into further details at some point.
I did then expand on it a little later, which I had completely forgotten about. I even said then that they were two of the most honest posts I’d ever written – and that stands today, I think.
All in all, as the date of Jake’s arrival approached, I seemed to make things more and more complicated in terms of what needed to be done on my websites and YouTube channel. Just kept doing videos that no-one was watching, just kept on writing things that no-one was reading, and had a hell of a pipeline behind it all. I had to make thumbnails, featured images, encode the videos, play the games, upload the videos on a terrible connection…
It’s no wonder it was making me a little crazy.
