Four years on. History is not over, things change.

Bit of a rambling one, this. Four years ago I had a mental breakdown and I walked off into the night with the intention of killing myself. I didn’t do it, obviously, I changed my mind. I turned away from the void. Vowed to change. To become someone I’d always …

Taking another year off

I’m finding myself in that situation again this academic year, mainly thanks to coronavirus this time around rather than financial worries. But this time, I can see it coming, and I won’t lose focus. I won’t waste this year. I’ve got things I need to do to be ready for …

L3CiCS Reflective Diary – 25th June 2020

So that’s that then. Last night I got an email from the college saying that our internal and external assessments have been submitted to the CPCAB for a calculated grade. Our tutor had already told us that we would all pass. Now that our final grade is being calculated, between …

Reflecting on ending self-isolation

This Coronavirus thing has been a bit shit, eh? I’m due to go back to work next week, and I have mixed emotions about it. On the one hand, I hate my current job, and these twelve weeks have been eye-opening to exactly how much I do hate it. I’m …

L3CiCS Reflective Diary – 15th May 2020

This week we are looking at ethics in counselling, in particular, how to apply an understanding of an ethical framework to counselling practise sessions. This combines the two aspects of counselling that I feel are my weak areas: ethics and skills practises. Seeing as we are still in lockdown due …

L3CiCS Reflective Diary – 7th May 2020

Due to the ongoing Coronavirus crisis, we’ve not had a class at the Haven Community Centre for about seven weeks – it’s been crazy times. This week I met up with Gareth online via Skype to chat about research. It was quite strange talking to a screen rather than a …

Self-isolation, quarantine, whatever this limbo is; week seven

Time is strange at the moment. It goes fast, but feels slow. Days take ages, but are over before you know it. This strange coronavirus limbo is warping things. It’s so quiet outside, it’s unreal. Eerie. Spooky. It feels like the entire world has been paused. I didn’t get a …

Self-isolation, week four

It reminds me of when I was unemployed, having all this free time. But it’s weird – instead of bumming around playing videogames all day and moderating meaningless internet forums, this time I am spending my time improving my situation. I asked Twitter when the lockdown first started if this …

L3CiCS Reflective Diary – 10th April 2020

Research is an interesting aspect of counselling and psychotherapy, and I think it is very important. It is essentially a sphere of knowledge that exists parallel to your own body of knowledge as a person and as a counsellor, and overlaps in places. Research, or “finding out what works” has …

Self isolation, week three

Last week went a bit quicker than the first week of isolation – but I put that down to not being on high alert in terms of anxiety the whole week. It’s reared it’s head again, but I’m slowly reeling it back in as things settle down. Looking back to …