Just been feeling a little bit down this week. Can’t pinpoint it on anything really. I smashed the next section of the coaching course I’m doing via Association of Learning – after it was returned to me because I didn’t do the Harvard referencing and citations properly though… I can’t say I’m a fan of having to reference stuff, I feel it suggests that original thought needs to not really be original to be any good.
I had too many early nights last week. Nights when I went to bed at 9pm instead of coming down here and doing something creative for a couple of hours. I don’t even feel any more refreshed than if I had come down here every night. I think it’s still a bit of that fear of success I wrote about last week. Just because I have discovered my fear of success, recognised it as a “thing” in my brain, doesn’t mean I can just over-ride it. Same with my procrastination. I get hung up on the order of the steps I need to take to complete a task, and elaborate it so much in my head that I don’t get around to doing the task.
The key to overcoming this is action. Pure and simple.
Just start something. You don’t have to finish it, you don’t have to have finishing it as a goal, the goal is to start it. This may seem to be at odds with me saying earlier that I have 50 browser windows in my head open at once… But action begets action. And it’s only action that can finish tasks and close browser windows sufficiently. Sometimes inaction closes those windows, but allowing that to happen leaves a stench of incompleteness behind; a foul nagging, pulling gently on the edge of your consciousness, reminding you that inaction won that little battle.
