emotional pain – Iain Douglas Stewart

Further thoughts on my father’s passing

By Iain March 27, 2025ReflectionsNo Comments

So, my Dad died. As I said in the other post, we weren't close by any stretch of the imagination, the last time I saw him in person was in maybe 1997 or 1998 when I was in my early twenties, the last time I spoke to him on the phone was in 2019 on Jake's birthday (I didn't actually…

Rest in Peace, Misty

By Iain March 10, 2025ReflectionsNo Comments

In what is becoming somewhat of a pattern in 2025, there's been another death in my life. This time it was our beloved cat, Misty. He had developed a problem with his lymph nodes, and a course of treatment was way out of our budget. And it wasn't even guaranteed to work. So we made the hard decision to have…

James Drysdale Stewart

By Iain February 17, 2025ReflectionsNo Comments

So, on the 14th of February, I received the news that my father had passed away. Now, before I start, please be aware that although he was my father, we were not close. He left our family when my brother and I were very young, and while we did go and stay with him and his new wife for a…

David “melatonin” Watson

By Iain January 23, 2025Internet, Reflections, Site RelatedNo Comments

Or lewismistreated, however you knew him. I don't really know how to say this. Well, he took his own life recently. Karl (Lost and Found) broke the news on the 15th of January 2025 in a group chat on Facebook that I originally set up to let everyone know that the Random Fury! forums were closing, back in 2018. I…

I don’t know where my motivation has gone

By Iain August 11, 2022Physicality, Reflections, The MissionNo Comments

I try and keep it positive on here, which is why it's been quiet recently. A lot of negativity in my life right now. Stuck in a slump and I just don't know which way to go. Work is awful right now, people have been leaving for years and have not been replaced, and it's got to the point now…

L3CiCS Counselling Agency Assignment

By Iain June 29, 2020Qualifications courseworkNo Comments

The purpose of this assignment is to choose a counselling agency and research how it operates. I have chosen Off The Record. I chose this organisation because there was once a place in Southampton that offered a similar service that I visited when I was a troubled teenage to get some help. It helped me greatly, more than I realised…

L3CiCS You as a Counsellor Assignment

By Iain June 28, 2020Qualifications courseworkNo Comments

I am training to become a counsellor because I want to help people. Throughout my life I have struggled with a lot of various types of mental health problems, such as depression, addiction and severe anxiety. I was borderline narcissistic and I suffered from delusions of grandeur, as well as Golden-Child syndrome. I thought I deserved more, but I expected…

L3CiCS Reflective Diary – 8th May 2020

By Iain May 8, 2020Qualifications courseworkNo Comments

This week in lockdown, I am working on self-awareness and how it contributes to the ability to empathise with others. Empathy is a kind of emotional imagination; it is the ability to map the knowledge of your own feelings to those of someone else in order to gain a deeper understanding of how those emotions influenced their mental state, their…