And I have to say, it’s quite sad. I’m just porting all the old posts over from the old blog, and I’m currently at the Phantasy Star Universe stage.
I mean, I know videogames had a big hold on my life, but imagine if I had devoted myself with such vigour to philosophy and psychology instead of a videogame.
Imagine if I had devoted myself to climbing Maslow’s Hierarchy rather than getting my entirely irrelevant avatar to level 200 of some absolutely pointless videogame.
Imagine if, instead of searching for an imaginary recipe board for an imaginary gun in an imaginary world, I searched for my life’s purpose.
I know I can’t get the time back. It’s what makes this so important. I know I need to do it now. If I don’t do this now, I never will. I will literally be stuck on a till for the rest of my life, and I don’t want that.
I could look at it another way. Re-frame it. If I hadn’t spent all that time playing, then I wouldn’t be exactly where I was right now. And I should be thankful for that. Jake, my son, is amazing. We have a beautiful home, in a lovely neighbourhood. I’m lucky enough to be in a position in which I can better myself, I can study counselling and psychotherapy and I will eventually have my own practise.
Every decision I have made in my life has lead me to this exact moment. This is where I am right now, and this is where I need to be right now.
