Iain Douglas Stewart

Smudge was acting strangely

By Iain 28 March 2011ReflectionsNo Comments

When we woke up yesterday morning, we were greeted by a cat curled up at the bottom of the bed. Usually when one of us goes to step over Smudge, she bolts, but this time she didn't. Jane got down and had a closer look, Smudge was clearly out of sorts. At first she was holding her leg funny, not…

Don’t think about smoking

By Iain 21 March 2011Music, Reflections, VideogamesNo Comments

These past few weeks have been dominated by smoking. I've been thinking about smoking, thinking about not smoking, hating every time I light a cigarette up and being totally schizophrenic about it all. I want to be a non-smoker, or an ex-smoker, but at the same time I don't feel I can face not being a smoker. I know Allen…

From the Forum: What is ration?

By Iain 21 March 2011Site Related, VideogamesNo Comments

melatonin wrote: Elite Four done again. So much easier the second time round. You know you're good when your biggest problem is PP usage rather than actually managing to win. Cynthia done also. Bitch. Guess there isn't much else to do now really? I feel empty. Lost and Found wrote: Seventeen days. You had it for seventeen days and you…

Attempt #3, Part 2

By Iain 10 March 2011Books, ReflectionsNo Comments

Failed again, this time at 44 hours. While it was better than my last two recent attempts, I do feel a bit silly that I gave in so easily. Boredom got to me. I know that the cigarette I just smoked hasn't relieved my boredom in any way, but it has banished the thoughts of "I WANT A FUCKING CIGARETTE".…

Attempt #3

By Iain 9 March 2011Books, Films/TV, ReflectionsNo Comments

...is still in progress. I finished reading the book (The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanently) last night, went through the Final Cigarette ritual, and am now an ex-smoker. I'm feeling confident it'll last this time. My main enemy is boredom, as it can't be the stress that made me smoke, my life is so incredibly un-stressful. The book did…

Arrival

By Iain 28 February 2011Books, ReflectionsNo Comments

The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanently has arrived! It's much thicker than Easyway, and the print is tiny! It'll take a while to get through this one. Still, fingers crossed!

Attempt #2

By Iain 21 February 2011Books, ReflectionsNo Comments

Failed today. I was smoke-free for around 16 hours. Rubbish. I finished re-reading the Easyway book last night and figured there's no time like the present, so stopped smoking at about 9pm, had a nice long chat to Jane about random things, slept, got up, played a bit of Marvel vs Capcom 3, and whilst I was waiting for lunch…

Attempt #1

By Iain 15 February 2011Books, ReflectionsNo Comments

Failed this afternoon. I was smoke-free for twenty hours, which is quite pathetic to be honest! I smoked my last cigarette at 6pm last night. After which, Jane and I went out and had a lovely meal for Valentines/to celebrate me getting past the twelve weeks at Asda, and I didn't have a nicotine related pang at all. We got…

Easyway

By Iain 11 February 2011Books, ReflectionsNo Comments

I bought Allen Carr's "Easy Way To Stop Smoking" today. I dearly want to stop smoking, and apparently this is the easiest way to do it. I'm not doing it because it's the easiest way to be honest, it's just that I've tried using my willpower and nicotine replacement products before, and it made me miserable as I was always…