“The Mission” begins anew every day

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"The Mission" began in February 2017 when I committed myself to eternal self-improvement. Every day I must improve my life or the life of someone around me. I gave a work colleague my old copy of Allen Carr's "EasyWay to Stop Smoking", it worked for me, I hope it works for her. She had a health scare recently, and despite…

Three weeks of freedom

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So, it's been about three weeks since I last had a cigarette. Or should that be: So, it's been about three weeks since I had my last cigarette. I really feel like I've conquered it. I've had the occasional desire to have one, but I've never actually seriously considered going and buying any. Even when my friend was smoking right…

Oh, hi

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It's been a while since I've had a bit of a ramble about the contents of my head, so here we go. I'm still smoking. As I've said before, the principles of Easyway are sound, I can see that, but putting them into practise still gives me the fear. Reach is still awesome. I've made ten maps now! I think…

Don’t think about smoking

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These past few weeks have been dominated by smoking. I've been thinking about smoking, thinking about not smoking, hating every time I light a cigarette up and being totally schizophrenic about it all. I want to be a non-smoker, or an ex-smoker, but at the same time I don't feel I can face not being a smoker. I know Allen…

Attempt #3, Part 2

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Failed again, this time at 44 hours. While it was better than my last two recent attempts, I do feel a bit silly that I gave in so easily. Boredom got to me. I know that the cigarette I just smoked hasn't relieved my boredom in any way, but it has banished the thoughts of "I WANT A FUCKING CIGARETTE".…

Attempt #3

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...is still in progress. I finished reading the book (The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanently) last night, went through the Final Cigarette ritual, and am now an ex-smoker. I'm feeling confident it'll last this time. My main enemy is boredom, as it can't be the stress that made me smoke, my life is so incredibly un-stressful. The book did…

Arrival

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The Only Way To Stop Smoking Permanently has arrived! It's much thicker than Easyway, and the print is tiny! It'll take a while to get through this one. Still, fingers crossed!

Attempt #2

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Failed today. I was smoke-free for around 16 hours. Rubbish. I finished re-reading the Easyway book last night and figured there's no time like the present, so stopped smoking at about 9pm, had a nice long chat to Jane about random things, slept, got up, played a bit of Marvel vs Capcom 3, and whilst I was waiting for lunch…

Attempt #1

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Failed this afternoon. I was smoke-free for twenty hours, which is quite pathetic to be honest! I smoked my last cigarette at 6pm last night. After which, Jane and I went out and had a lovely meal for Valentines/to celebrate me getting past the twelve weeks at Asda, and I didn't have a nicotine related pang at all. We got…

Easyway

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I bought Allen Carr's "Easy Way To Stop Smoking" today. I dearly want to stop smoking, and apparently this is the easiest way to do it. I'm not doing it because it's the easiest way to be honest, it's just that I've tried using my willpower and nicotine replacement products before, and it made me miserable as I was always…