When you hit rock bottom, they say you can see exactly how far you need to climb to get back to where you were. Sounds easy enough, but it’s very foggy, and I’m not even sure if I’m going the right way. I hit rock bottom recently – I reached the end of a long, painful journey and stared into the abyss, and the abyss told me to stop being a dick and sort my life out. I’ve taken some time out from work, and I’ve made progress already, things I’ve been putting off for years are getting done. I wasn’t sure if it was a cry for help or if I would have actually gone through with it, but I was definitely shocked at just how far I went. Laughing and crying, happy and sad all at once, seeing an end, then seeing it as a new beginning. Mentally, I fell far, I was a mess. Physically, I never fell at all, which is probably a good thing.
In broad strokes, I want to sort my body out, sort my mind out, sort my future out, and sort our marriage out.
In terms of this blog, I’m probably going to bring everything over from the RF videogame blog (articles, reviews and embedded YouTube videos), just so it’s all in one place. Pretty much everything always ends up here! I will endeavour to provide an update once a week – I have said in the past that getting my problems out here help me so, so much, it gets the thoughts out of my head, which is a good thing. I will most probably expand upon one aspect of improvement every week, what I want to achieve, what I feel I can achieve, how I will do it, what I’ve done so far – I’m using this as a documentation of my progress, and right now it may well seem quite abstract, but there you go.
I plan on helping myself, understanding myself, so that I can in turn help and understand others, so that they may understand themselves. I think I have found my higher calling in life, and it is not bumming around in Asda for the rest of my life.
