2016 was pretty shit to be honest. I don’t really know how it happened, or what happened, but I feel like I done something wrong or broke something but I don’t know what it was and it has brought every bad decision I ever made back to haunt me.
That is about as much sense as you’ll get out of me regarding it. I’m sure it will unravel in time, maybe it won’t, who knows, but I will endeavour to write more on here in 2017. I feel like it helps a lot, getting stuff out of my head and onto the screen.
2016 really put my head through the mill, I have come to realise that I am on the autistic spectrum (something my Dad agreed with, with regards to “obsessions” – he is the same), not quite full blown Aspergers, but on the spectrum. I have incredibly low self esteem and hardly any self worth. I’ve realised much, much too late that I have needed to do something with my life all this time. I’ll do a proper update in a day or two if/when I get a chance.
I feel like I’ve lost my best friend, even though she’s still there. But all I want is for her to hug me. Tell me I’m being silly. Tell me she loves me. That’s all.